Tuesday, March 1, 2016

MORE Confessions Of A Blogger

I've been confessing a lot lately {see Figuring Out My Place In Time And Space series} and not so much writing like I use to. I think that is good. We should all grow and evolve in our writing. But in this article, I want to get back to my blogging roots. Sharing my blogging struggles with you and hoping inspiring you to share yours! 

Let's get sharing!
1. After work I am so done. 

The new job as a school portrait photographer I recently started has me waking up at 5:00 a.m. each day, lugging around VERY heavy equipment and most of the time driving an hour to and from our destination. Most of my work days end up being ten hours or more. SO by the time I get home I can barely feed myself.

BUT I have been forcing myself to write or edit a little each day. Which ends up going longer than I ever think I can. I'm always proud of my accomplishments no matter how big or small.

AND I must apply for one new job a day. Cleaning? Meh. Laundry? MAYBE on the weekends. A big bonus is that I'm too tired to go spend any money!
2. I write on my down time at work. 

In between class portrait sessions I usually have a few free minutes to sit and gather my thoughts. I take full advantage of this time and bring my handy dandy notebook with me everywhere. I love putting pen to paper. When I get home all I have to do is type...ish...editing you know...up what I wrote during the day. Easy peasy!

3. I wish I could have written that. 

Do you get writers envy? I sure do. I read so many fantastic blogs and articles and books that I always WISH I could have written the things that stir my heart. Don't get me wrong I love what I write, but sometimes someone says something that makes my heart stop and think how do they feel exactly as I do?! 

Example: my new favorite band crush Walking On Cars. Their song Catch Me If You Can is me in this very moment of my life:

Catch me if you can,
Catch me if you can,
I just got my head down 
And I'm a little bit scared of life.
I need to run just far enough,
So I can smile again,
Smile again,
So I can smile again.

Take my by the hand,
Take me by the hand, 
But don't you get to close now,
Cause I'm a little bit scared of life.

I need someone to try and bring me back to innocence
Innocence,
Me back to innocence.

#musicswoon & #lifeswoonBrunchin' with Ocean Eyes.

4. I'm not afraid to get personal. 

Ok maybe I am a teanie bit. I write personal experiences for me and afterwards I always have the urge to share my writings. Usually that urge is stronger than fear. About 99.9% of the time. And that urge has always paid off. For myself and my readers. I've helped myself to begin to heal and hopefully along the way I can inspire and inform others that they are not alone. That is always on my mind, helping others. Being brave so others can be as well.
Thank you nerds for reading. Always.

5. But why would anyone care? 

Oh self doubt, how I loath you. I've been through a host of life changes this past year. Some hard, all emotional, all I knew were right or me not matter how difficult. I've met so many amazing new friends, am on a new and exciting life path and blossoming in my writing. With guidance from my Pisces Soul Sister, I have started a gratitude journal. Through everything, I've held on to my positivity. But the gratitude journal is quite the eye opening experience. On these long work days all I want to do is fall into bed when I get home. But NO. I write. I write this blog. My book 100 Cups Of Coffee. And now my gratitude journal. No matter how tired I am. I love finding one or more small moments in my day that I can feel joy about right as I fall asleep.

Do you have any blogger confessions? I would love to hear them in the comments below. Or even in a post! Remember to always enjoy what you are doing. Have fun and most importantly through these confessions I hope we can all learn from each other!

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11 comments:

  1. Danielle KnappMarch 01, 2016

    Gratitude journal sounds like a lovey idea...and ohhhh ocean eyes brunch! :)

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  2. Oh man, I totally feel you with wanting to do nothing after work. I feel like I'm either running at maximum capacity or doing nothing more than breathing. I really have to work hard to make time after work, before work, or on a lunch break to write. It's always super rewarding when I do, but the pull of a nap or Netflix binge is a tough one to break free from sometimes. :)

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  3. Love your gratitude journal! And wow, a school portrait photographer - I feel like that can be a stressful job!! Yikes! No wonder you're wiped at the end of the day.

    I definitely feel you on the 'why would anyone care?' problem. I always feel like my blog is a rambling mess, but I am getting more confident as I keep at it! Blogging is such a fun hobby, but it does stress me out sometimes.

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  4. Kay, thank you so much for sharing! It's nice to know that we all have these "real" lives that try to hinder us from what we love to do! Let's keep pushing through! You go girl! xx

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  5. I do let myself have that on the weekends but I try to do as much as my body will allow during the week. But man is it killer. I've been going to bed at 830! LOL Thanks babe!! xx

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  6. I 100% feel you on the no motivation after work thing. It is *so hard* to be motivated to work on other things, but I'm trying to be more disciplined about my writing and blogging time. I love doing both these things too much to let it fall by the wayside!

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  7. Manchester Flik ChikMarch 02, 2016

    Those are some long hours but I love the way you make use of every moment. My gratitude journal has been ignored for a month now - oops! I think I'll fill it in every morning after my exercises so it becomes routine. Do the school kids normally behave in general or is it a challenge?

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  8. The children are for the most part really well behaved. There are a few challenges everyday but that is every job. So far so good! Get at that exercise girl! I need to kick up my game! xx

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  9. Thanks Alice! It is hard but totally worth it! xx

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  10. I have very little motivation when I get home from work too. I have been trying to work out, and spending 30 minutes to an hour doing that, and then I want to shower and eat, and read a book... not much blog stuff gets done around here anymore. But that's okay! I find time eventually! :)

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